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[Prophecy] The Trap of Self-Acceptance and the Lack of Repentance

In Jesus’ name, I prophesy breakthrough over those who are stuck in “self-acceptance”! The enemy is trying to get you stuck in endless warfare regarding your identity; but I prophesy clarity in Jesus’ name! Be freed from deception as you believe in the finished work of Christ!

The Bible says that CHRIST accepted us to the glory of God (Romans 15:7), not that we should “accept ourselves as we are”. You cannot leave Christ out and make it all about yourself, or use His name in vain, saying that “Christ” told you it is OK because He “made you that way”. I am talking about real sin here, leaving people stuck in a false identity they have received for themselves! Everyone who denies their sin calls God a liar (1. John 1:10). They be made a liar! YOU be made a liar if this prophecy applies to you. Take it as a warning, a wake-up call. Test it for yourself, and you will know by God’s grace if you have been stuck in it for years. God makes everything work together for our good and He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins when we confess our sins to Him. Be swift to repent when He opens your eyes because He loves you and He accepts you because you believed in the Son of God!

I understand it was hard. It was hard to bear. Unbelief creeped in, you stopped going deeper. Do not be afraid but only believe! It is by the blood of Jesus ONLY that we enter into the Holy of Holies! Jesus alone is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. Only believe and you shall be freed from captivity! It is by the finished work of the cross that we are made righteous and are justified before our God!

There is a place for all your mistakes on the cross, there is a place of acceptance in the arms of the Father through the blood of Jesus. Go deeper with Him! Be unstuck in Jesus’ name! Those who get real with God and let the Holy Spirit truly examine their hearts shall see light! They shall see light, hallelujah!

In Jesus’ name.
Amen.

Love Is… Prophecy Is…

Audio version

Hi everyone,
I hope your week started off great! Today I want to share again a vision I had about a year ago, which I am reminded of repeatedly these days; and add something else beneath it. The following four lines are what I shared back then:

Love Is…

Jesus was one of the guests in the vision and I wondered where the host was and all the other guests! He did not say a word while cleaning up. He did not do it reluctantly, expecting to be acknowledged for what He was doing – you could see it on His face that He was doing it gladly! He did it silently, all by Himself, and I realized that this is just how God is! When you look at Romans 12, you can see that it is a privilege and gift from God towards us when we have smaller or bigger opportunities to serve in everyday life:

“Having gifts that differ according to the grace given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, in proportion to our faith; if service, in our serving; the one who teaches, in his teaching; the one who exhorts, in his exhortation; the one who contributes, in generosity; the one who leads, with zeal; the one who does acts of mercy, with cheerfulness.” (Romans 12:6-8 ESV)

Now some may think: ‘I don’t have the gift of service, so this vision doesn’t apply to me,’ and the former may be true. However, remember that we are all commanded to serve:

“When he had washed their feet and put on his outer garments and resumed his place, he said to them, “Do you understand what I have done to you? You call me Teacher and Lord, and you are right, for so I am. If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another’s feet. For I have given you an example, that you also should do just as I have done to you. Truly, truly, I say to you, a servant is not greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. If you know these things, blessed are you if you do them. I am not speaking of all of you; I know whom I have chosen.” (John 13:12-18 ESV)

Is this not amazing? “BLESSED ARE YOU IF YOU WASH ONE ANOTHER’S FEET.” This is the blessing which lies upon a Jesus-centered community. He is speaking to His chosen ones; you know you ought to serve others when you believe that you are chosen by Him.

Another significant revelation I received from Him, which I want to add – which I am sure I will keep sharing with others, by God’s grace, till the end of my life – is His answer when I asked Him what prophecy is. I have the gift of prophecy, I love to prophesy; but something was bugging me about my heart. Guess which Scripture He gave me? John 13, the passage I just shared! I was in awe when I checked the passage and I heard the Holy Spirit say: “My daughter, prophecy is washing someone else’s feet.” Think about it; you should always have the servant heart of Jesus when you are SERVING someone with prophecy from heaven, and do it in proportion to your faith (if we go back to the first bible passage I shared, it says in Romans 12 that those who have the gift of prophecy should prophesy in proportion to our faith). I really want us to remember this when we are prophesying, and remember Jesus, our Teacher and Lord, when we are serving others. I want to remember it when no one sees me and says “thank you”, that God is acknowledging me and affirming me. The records of my actions (of faith) remain in heaven for eternity, and this is the Lord’s story through me!

I was very self-centered once, and obsessed with my pain above others’. At one point, I cried out for deliverance because I wanted to change and live selflessly. God shifted my focus away from my pain and the Holy Spirit helped me to serve others silently. He keeps reminding me that I am choosing the better path towards healing if I obey and to what He did first, by giving us an example. I know whose I am, so I follow His ways; my sweet and amazing Lord Jesus’. HE IS THE WAY TO THE FATHER.

I hope this word blesses you.

In Jesus’ name,
Amen.

The Miraculous Ways of God

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Hi friend,

How is your heart? I’ve been having something on my mind today and it might be challenging for some but not for many; I hear that for most it will be an encouragement to keep pursuing God regarding this matter. You are already walking in it with Him and He is calling you deeper. Regardless of where you are at right now – maybe this is the first time you hear the nudging of the Holy Spirit regarding this matter – I just want to say that God, our Father, loves you and wants you to be filled with His heart for you and your brothers and sisters in Christ around you. He wants us all to know Him better!

Today’s theme is forgiving your brother or sister in Christ. I might talk about this more often in the near future because forgiveness brings such healing to our hearts! It helps us resemble God’s tender, soft heart. It comes from faith that God cares for me and doesn’t want the wounds in my heart to rot and harden my heart. If I don’t have the faith to forgive, it is like building my house on sand and not on Jesus (Matthew 7:24-27). If I lose sight of God’s tender heart towards me, I do things that cannot stand in God’s holy fire because God is a merciful God. Where would I be without God’s compassion and mercy? I do not even want to imagine because it already felt so horrible when I remained in unforgiveness. It felt like living hell and it affected my entire life. Do you know that feeling when you are holding onto unforgiveness to have some sense of power towards the person who hurt you? You feel unsafe and you are trying to defend yourself. If it was not for the Father’s grace that pulled me back, I would be living that even now and keep blaming God and others and myself for the misery and probably do stupid things on repeat without acknowledging my sin (of mercilessness or unforgiveness).

I just want you to know that there is no judgment or accusation here. I perfectly understand when it takes a long time to forgive and when the process looks messy because I have been there! I know I will never be able to truly understand what you went through – only God can and no other man – but I know the agony of broken relationships among believers. If you have a strong desire to be deeply understood (because you are human) and you feel like that need is not being met, please allow the Holy Spirit to go deeper with you and keep pursing righteousness because it is written that God knows your need even before you ask. If you had needed that one person now, He would have sent that person to you. Maybe He did send him or her but that person disobeyed, that is why you ended up alone. However, even that pain can serve you now if you trust Him. God is always with you, it is in the name Emmanuel, God With Us! Decree it over yourself! He understands you more than you understand yourself. You can tell Him everything without the fear of being judged, for there is no fear in love. I just want to encourage you to keep pursing Him as your only, best friend and trust Him that He will send even that one person to you when it is really time because that is my life’s testimony and I would never go back and have it any different. I was terribly alone with no one to go to, no one who would really understand and whom I felt safe with; but God was there and He was my only friend. I learned to fully rely on Him when it comes to relationships. It took time to trust Him with my emotions and thoughts, but I realized at one point He already knows them – He even sees all my imaginations even before I have them! Where could I ever go where He was not? It is pointless to try to hide things from Him! And this is where the crazy love of God hits deep when you choose to have faith in His Word, because you realize that He always loved you the same. That means, He loves you at your worst. He loves you the same, no matter what you do. And only when you think you couldn’t get worse, He tells you you are growing! How crazy is that!

Some of you are angry right now. And desperate. It’s painful, I know. But He knows you are there! He knows the injustice done against you and He has the right measure. Oh yes, He has the right measure. Mercy means that we do not get the punishment we deserve. He knows the weight of each person’s sin. He knows the exact weight, and we have to be careful to judge with a disproportionate measure. The same measure that we use will be used against us (Matthew 7:2). We all have sinned against God and we all deserve punishment, but God is a merciful and compassionate God. He will deliver us to the torturers when we receive His mercy for ourselves but do not give away that same mercy to another brother or sister in Christ. That is the written Word of God, we must forgive our brothers and sisters from our hearts (Matthew 18:32-35).

So, where do we go from here? The answer is always Jesus. We would all receive such healing if we feared God and took His words seriously (Malachi 4:2)! We would walk in such freedom and be the person God meant us to be! Look at Jesus. He was the Son of God. Imagine being God and having to deal with all the humans here on earth who have no clue who He is (always misunderstanding Him if not revealed by the Holy Spirit) and try to teach Him and even slap Him in the face! Yes, we crucified Him! Imagine, too, being betrayed by your very best friends whom you loved to the end and ultimately gave your life for. We did that to Him! He was God, He did not have to go through that! Now look at your ego, can you do that in reflection of His Word? I mean, I would get embarrassed and shut my mouth before God because I have nothing to say! That is, when God perfectly humbles me (in order to rescue me) with a patience unimaginable, I stop begging God to use His mighty power and rain down His fire for intervention; well, I am just sharing honestly that I get you if you have prayed such prayers. But Jesus, you know – Jesus, He endured all that for us. FOR US. I say “us” and not “you” because that is where we really have to consider and love the Father through whom the entire family of God is named in heaven and on earth (Ephesians 3:15). Don’t do that to Him. If you have children of your own and don’t want to see them hurt each other, don’t do that towards our Father. God, who gave His own life for us and loves us so much. Do it for Him, and do it for yourself because God wants to set you free. He is God, He can deal with things. You, however, cannot deal with all the hard things without forgiving. You were not made that way, you were made to be forgiven to forgive.

Friend, I could go on and on and share many testimonies of pain and victory, but maybe more some next time. Just know I want you to be healed. Truly, that is why I said some hard things today with love. I had to learn the hard way and God was very gracious towards me that it was never too much for me with His help. It took years and years and yes, I am still healing but I am an entirely different person now. I am so free now, like never before! Do you wonder why I named this post “The Miraculous Ways of God”? Because it is always a miracle when His tender heart reaches our hearts and His holiness transforms us to resemble Him. Forgiveness is how we resemble Him. (“Father, forgive them for they do not know what they do”.) Oh, the glory of that! We can live heaven on earth if we choose to release that person – these people; your own parent, your sibling; that relative that abused you and assaulted you – from our hearts. Nothing is impossible for God if we only ask according to His will to forgive and let go. He gives us His Spirit so that we can. I can’t do it on my own, I can’t even want to forgive if God’s grace was not upon my life. Not by my might, not by power, but by His Spirit. The Spirit is our Helper. He helps me forgive. He does it through me, and it sets me free. The tightness in my chest goes, the heavy burden falls off and I can live my life, unbound from the shackles that used to tear me down to the depths of hell. This, my friend, is God’s promise towards you.

Let me know how I can pray for you and if you would love to have a small group of women to walk with you through this. I am willing to host one soon if I get enough reactions. Leave me a comment, send me an e-mail or message me on Instagram or Facebook. Love you. Till then.

And Some Of Those Shall Fall

Hi everyone,

how was your Holy Week? I was already sick when I did the deliverance night on Thursday, and it got worse the day after. I have been recovering since. A family member told me on Saturday what an honor it was that I was suffering physically like Jesus on Good Friday and believe it or not, it comforted me deeply to hear that. I received it with my heart and things did shift on Resurrection Sunday! I was feeling so much better when I woke up and I told the person immediately – we both smiled. How about you? Maybe things did not shift for you on Sunday. I get that, God does not play according to our expectations. God had a set time for me and He did it out of grace. My testimony does not apply to everyone. You have not failed to believe or done something wrong because you did not get the change on Easter. Do not hang your faith on certain dates but know what God is speaking to you personally. God loves you and has a sovereign plan for you!

I am sharing my testimony though, because sometimes you just need a reminder that there is a good reason behind the suffering you are enduring. Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that God made me sick. No, God is good and there is no evil in Him. He does, however, allow suffering. Followers of Jesus must face various trials and tribulations all throughout their lives to receive the imperishable crown (1. Corinthians 9:24-25). By partnering with Jesus, always looking unto Him as the author and finisher of our faith (Hebrews 12:2), we enter the rest that our Father has for us through Jesus Christ. We enter this rest by faith; and when I do not have the strength to figure out why something is happening, I rest all the more in the finished work of Christ. He makes everything work together for my good because I love Him! I trust Him enough to remain in Him through faithful obedience: I cry out to Him in faith, “please receive this sinner, Father, into Your presence! Help me draw near to you when I am weak and my flesh is failing. Holy Spirit, come, and do what only You can do! I believe, help my unbelief!”

For me, the most horrible feeling I ever had in my life was that of permanent disconnection with God. I cannot even imagine how painful it must have been for Jesus to feel that on the cross. He endured it for us when He cried out loud, “eloi, eloi, lama sabachthani (my God, my God, why have You forsaken me)”. I remember that day, kneeling down to pray and feeling the terrible coldness. I got scared and started trembling all over my body, I cried like a baby and told God to please not abandon me – to please forgive me for making Him harden my heart by continuously grieving the Holy Spirit with idolatry and unbelief. I felt like I was literally dying! Oh, may the Holy Spirit remind me whenever He must of this fearful moment when the holy fear of God gripped my soul and led me to repentance. Hell (the absence of God) is far worse than any physical suffering I can ever go through here on earth!

Why am I sharing this with you? Because for the most part, I felt like a total failure this past week. I was in an intense spiritual battle of the mind, and my body was still weak. I knew all I had to know, that He was teaching my hands to war (Psalm 18:34). I knew I was going through the valley of humility in this season because I had prayed for more brokenness. Ah yes, you pray those prayers, right? Either out of sincerity or pride or most likely both, only God knows. Yet He loves those prayers! He leads you faithfully through it, helping you to face the truth about yourself that you are utterly lost if not for Jesus. Your mind is so corrupted and prone to sin and the enemy would totally have his grip over us if it were not for the blood of Jesus. Satan tries to keep you there: in shame and fear; he lies to you to identify with those sinful thoughts, he accuses you of being a failure, that God would not want you anymore. How could he possibly want you with all that you are? Child of God, how do you fight against this judging tongue? What do you say? Repeat after me:

Get behind me, devil! The blood of Jesus covers me and you must flee from me because it is written. I resist you and declare that I have died and now it is Christ who lives in me! I wear the new man, which has been renewed by the Spirit of God! I have the righteousness of Christ and I am blameless and spotless in His eyes. I live by it and I am a beloved child of God. God promises to me that I will never be in shame and disgrace anymore because of Jesus. In the mighty name of Jesus I pray! Amen!

God always led me in triumph through this kind of battle for years and years and yet, there seems to be a depth to knowing God that I cannot reach without going through it again, in a deeper way. There is a depth to this prayer that you can only know when you have had that intimate experience with God, and His Word has sunk into your heart. I can pray this prayer with faith for you, especially as I have the gift of faith, but I pray that you will get deeper with knowing God yourself, my friend! There are some times when we have to fall to rise up again. It is God’s way of refining us. I titled this post “And Some Of Those Shall Fall” and I got it from Daniel 11. Let me finish with this Scripture:

Those who do wickedly against the covenant he shall corrupt with flattery; but the people who know their God shall be strong, and carry out great exploits. And those of the people who understand shall instruct many; yet for many days they shall fall by sword and flame, by captivity and plundering. Now when they fall, they shall be aided with a little help; but many shall join with them by intrigue. And some of those of understanding shall fall, to refine them, purify them, and make them white, until the time of the end; because it is still for the appointed time. (vv. 32-35)

Daniel was prophesying about Antiochus Epiphanes here who would bring about a great tribulation among the Israelites of such a measure that many would fall away from faith. Believe me, this Word is alive and active and still applies to us a 100%! The whole point here is that God arranged this. For what reason, would you ask. Notice the corruption and apostasy among THE PEOPLE OF GOD foretold in this chapter (remember the same foretold in the book of Revelation?). It says, however, that the people who KNOW God shall be strong and carry out great exploits. The people of God who UNDERSTAND shall instruct many. Yet, the persecution will continue and only become harder. Many of them will be killed, imprisoned and plundered. There will be only “a little” help (because God knows we need that). But by then, even some of those of understanding, who know God, shall fall. Again, God appointed this. Why? For refinement and purification. For them to be made white.

My friend, we must strive to know God and understand His will, the Word (read 1. Peter 1 and Colossians 1). It makes such a difference when you truly know Him through the Spirit – when His Word is engraved deep into your heart because you have encountered God as it is written about Him; it is all about relationship! And if you don’t have that, don’t give up! For even those who know and understand, even some of those must fall to grasp the gospel in a deeper way. If you have put your trust in God by believing in Jesus, God will finish the work which He has started in you. Only remember to remain in Him by doing what He has commanded us: to love God and to love our neighbors as ourselves. We are to love one another, we are to act according to His will for us in Jesus Christ: to rejoice always, to give thanks in all circumstances and to pray without ceasing. Do this and you will remain under the wings of God in Jesus Christ.

So yes, let us strive to love when we are hurting and in pain, knowing that our suffering leads us closer to Christ. Let us never relent in pursuing righteousness and fearing God because it heals us and gives us a better knowledge of who Jesus is. Let us love and forgive like never before because such testimony helps us overcome the enemy! Oh Jesus, thank You for Your blood. Thank You, Father, for giving us so graciously of all the spiritual blessings we have through Jesus Christ. The Holy Spirit is a seal upon us until the day we get home. We trust You will get us there and rest in Your love today. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Be encouraged and equipped for battle!

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