When His Love Seems Miles Away

When His love seems miles away
Come back to the truth
Never enter into holiness
Looking back at what you did
Rely on Heavenly wisdom
That it is finished after all
That what is done, is done
And done on the cross

Why look back, searching for answers
When God is ahead of you, giving you answers
Why look around, to the left and to the right
When nothing can and no one will ever fulfill you
Because God is not enough for you

How do you attain such satisfaction?
How does God become your delight?
When you do it by faith, not by emotions
When you declare that you are His and His only

There is more to life than selfishness
Healing comes in togetherness
So embrace your holy identity as one not belonging to this world
And come back to when He first loved you
Because He always loved you first


Look at the start, the space before time
The presence of love forming you, just you
Bearing you and breathing life into you
Just you

Come on, hear His whisper to return
Hear His heart as He calls you forth
Aspire to know Him above all else
Worship Him, in spirit and truth!

Before you know, you will have changed
No more resisting who your Father is
Do you even know what this means?
It means you’re different, born to a King

Dunamis! I declare dunamis!
Dunamis! Let the wind blow!
Dunamis! Bring your children back
Bring them from the north and from the south
Bring them from the east, and from the west!

Amen



How To Delay The Fulfillment of God’s Promises

This is a wake-up call. Maybe you have read my recent post but this is more. For lust is not only sexual, but it is a great craving towards anything you do not possess. You believe you need it but do you really? Have you already taken it by force? By seduction? If yes, what have you done, my sister? What have you done, my brother? Did God not warn you enough? Did He not tell you that it begins in your thoughts? Satan just has to put the right triggers here and there and voilà! Be watchful and pray, Jesus said, lest you fall into temptation and have a hard time coming out of its mouth (Matthew 26:41). Our spirit is willing but our flesh is weak. So what do we do? We come to God, for He is strong where we are weak. Yes, null self-reliance is where we are headed to. Only the Spirit of Christ in us! We have to learn to walk by the Spirit everyday.

Who are the people you surround yourself with? Did you know the Israelites did not have to spend 40 years in the wilderness? What caused the delay? I ran across this bible verse a few days ago, it is incredible:

Then the foreign rabble who were traveling with the Israelites began to crave the good things of Egypt. And the people of Israel also began to complain. “Oh, for some meat!” they exclaimed.

Numbers 11:4

The people we surround ourselves with are important. Sometimes we have no choice, it can be family. That person may know God less than you do and he or she may try to bring you back to the old cycle again and again. This is why it is crucial to guard our hearts and to build our own relationship with Christ! The people of Israel had the same lust in them, they were just holding it back. As soon as the rabble started voicing their complaints, they became like horses without reins.

We have to remain vigilant, people of God! I recommend you read Numbers 11-14 to see how the people of God provoked Him again and again AFTER seeing all the signs and wonders and still seeing them everyday. God did not strike immediately but He gave them warning signs (Numbers 11:1). Their stubborn unbelief in His love and provision, their lust towards the things they did not have in that moment (but had in the past) drove them towards death and destruction. Prolonged years of suffering. This is what lust does! Leave a crack open and you find yourself in a miserable state again and again.

Please do not turn your back toward God any longer! Run to Him, run as fast as you can! Fall on your knees before Him and ask for true repentance, for you to know the truth. If you humble yourself before Him, He will rescue you from the snares of the enemy. My friend, please listen! Faith comes by hearing and faith produces obedience. God loves you. He loves you, He knows you deeply and He sees you. He protects you, His love is unwavering towards you. He is God, and He has so many good thoughts for you if only you would listen! I really do not want any of us to miss the abundance of life by craving after that which the Lord has never meant to be ours. If we had really needed it, He would have given it to us. So instead of being angry at Him for not giving you that, why don’t you start questioning yourself if you really need it?

Jesus is our only hope. Through Him we learn to walk by the Spirit. This very Spirit lives in us and breathes in us. He helps us live our lives in intimate friendship with the Father. Whatever it is, seek God and you will find Him, exactly in those areas where you are the weakest. Do it wholeheartedly, and you will grow exponentially for He is a rewarder of faith! I pray that everyone who reads this will receive the measure of grace God has for them. Ask for grace, ask for more! May you see the light before you, guiding you with love and devotion. That light, my friend, is in you and all around you. Amen.

Are You Struggling With Lust?

Lust is nasty. You are blessed when you are born less greedy and lustful. If your will is strong enough to restrain the strong craving inside of you, you are blessed, too. Now you may think, ‘then I’m lost because I’ve been trying to fight this lust in me for so long and I can’t. It controls me.’ Well, let me first assure you that you are already on the winning side if you are fighting! For many people’s hearts have been hardened by unbelief, and they accept the false teachings of this world (consensual premarital sex, homosexual intercourse, “good” pornography, masturbating, etc. are OK or even good for you) because of fear and hopelessness and, frankly, to please their flesh; does this sound harsh to you? That means your heart is still hard. Don’t you ever settle for less than complete freedom! May the Spirit of God open your eyes to see and understand! I pray for conviction and godly sorrow that leads to repentance and freedom (2. Corinthians 7:10), not condemnation, in Jesus’ name!

I’m not looking down on you or reproaching you from afar. God never does, He loves you very personally. He is close to you and He is always willing to help. His love is gentle, kind and patient. He loves you and does not look at you in a condescending way. You may feel left alone, but please believe that He is close to you and wants to help you. He would, if you would only let Him! He does it His way, yes, but He surely comes to rescue you. Oh, but that’s the tough part, too, right? That He helps you His way? Believe me, I speak out of experience! I have struggled with my own lustful desires for a large part of my life and I know the silent battle. I would not speak all this truth to you if it was not out of love! I mean, look at me now! Hear my testimonies, how they abound of God’s great love! There is hope, people of God! There is so much hope in the redemptive power of Christ, in the blood that cleanses us from all sin and we can do nothing without His Spirit. It is His Spirit that enables us to live as conquerors, not victims.

Even if you do not feel like a conqueror right now, I want to speak to your most holy faith to believe. God will heal you and help you break out of that cycle. And if you’re chosen for greater faith, He will lead you into tearing down all the high places – the false refuges you rely on – and help you fight till bloodshed against the lust in you. How do you fight? By relentlessly looking ONLY at God. This is the only way: look away from you and look at Christ, look at that beautiful man, our Savior! That one other human (the “one”) cannot save you! That relationship, that marriage will not save you. That sex, that part which arouses you when you watch pornography and masturbate, that part is not going to give you peace. You are not going to rest when you finally have that (and you most probably want that because something is gravely lacking in you. But only God can fill that void). When you believe in God’s love and redemption, that is when your heart will finally, truly rest (Hebrews 3:7-11).

Finally, I want to tell you something that may upset you even further: you, among all the people, are the most blessed! ‘Wait- what? Yes, YOU are the most blessed. For in your weakness, the Lord is strong; there is so much room for God to be Him in you, and what a blessing this is (2. Corinthians 12)! Because of this, there is so much hope! Let us examine this matter further over the next few weeks. May the Lord bless you, my dear brother and sister in Christ, and may He be gracious to you. May He open up the eyes of your heart to realize how much He loves you and desires to be with you! You are so loved, my friend! Stay tuned for breakthrough! Amen!

Love Has Enemies

It has been a while, brothers and sisters in Christ! I have been going through an intense season of testing and my cup truly overflows as I stretch out my thirsty soul towards the Lord! How are you doing? Has your trust in the Father grown? This morning, I see a dam breaking for Blue Mountain Ministry and powerful streams of water pushing through the bricks, silencing the voice of the enemy. Hallelujah!

May godly sorrow and grief lead us to repentance, allowing the Holy Spirit in us to just be Him and not who we want Him to be. May we say,

No, Lord, it’s not okay. I am no longer OK with my sins. My innermost thoughts should be about you, I should love you with all my heart, with all my strength and with all my mind. This cannot continue. Redeem me, do it for Your name’s sake and set me free forever! Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. I make room for you, Holy Spirit! I love you! Save me from ever settling down with less than You. I want my heart to want God above all else! Help!” 

Love has enemies. The people of this world do not like it when we lose our lives for Christ. The prince of this world hates God’s children. It is pure hatred directed against us but he disguises himself as an angel of light. If we are not careful, we end up partnering with him in hating our neighbors as we hate ourselves, instead of loving our neighbors as we love ourselves. Oh, but greater is He who is in us than he who is in the world! He has overcome!

He never leaves us but helps us and reminds us of His love – we only need to cry out and if we do and wait in patient love towards God, the Spirit turns the stony parts of our hearts into flesh. He sets us free from the heavy yoke of slavery so that we can rule over sin and not be slaves to them. He helps us be the person whom we were created to be.

Brothers and sisters, let me take you on a journey into the heart of God over the following days! I have powerful testimonies to share and I can’t wait to hear yours! We need each other in this hour. Arise, army of God! Breath of God, come and blow over the dry bones, let the tendons and flesh be attached and lives enter their bodies! Let Your Bride, Jesus, walk by the Spirit of life, her head raised and shining pure and bright with Your glory! Amen!

I Will Jump For You – At The Crossover

There are times when no one else can take this step of faith with you. You know it is personal; it goes deep. Ultimately, it is your decision and yours alone to trust God and surrender. You sense it is a big decision and you find it hard to let go completely. You already partly let go but this is where you need to die. You do not need any more signs and wonders to believe – no, you must just believe! Once and for all!

The desire to be cleansed is huge. The Holy Spirit has evoked a godly sorrow in my heart – I am at the threshold and I realize I never want to go back to my old life. I do not want to live double-minded before the Lord. I desire to be clean.

See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, what readiness to see justice done.

1. Corinthians 7:11 NIV

“God, if I can’t hear your voice right now because I am not willing to hear, would you just speak louder for me? Would you just shout out to me what you are saying?,” my desperate cry as I am walking outside on a Sunday afternoon. I close my eyes to listen and there! I hear Him loud and clear: “I love you, my child!,” and He continues, “I am desiring you! I want you!” I see Him there, standing further away on the opposite side of what seems like a dark valley of death between us. I know it is not real but only in my imagination. It is my fear and unbelief that make me dread the crossing.

Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.

John 12:24-26 NIV

So what now? Actually, we both know. God and I, we both know that I am going to take this step. I am going to cross over because He believes in me and is for me. I will die, only to be resurrected again. He is going to catch me as soon as I jump!

You were taught in him, as the truth is in Jesus, to put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.

Ephesians 4:24 ESV

I do not want to hold onto my ways of coping with the emotional pain inside of me any longer. This inner child inside of me, crying out that she wants to be loved, is growing still before Him, to trust Him when He says He loves her. And the fretting goes because she finally sees! She shouts back to Him, “I trust you, God! I know your voice. Meet me there, Abba. I will jump for you. Because I know You will catch me.”