Quietness of Heart

Since Blue Mountain Ministry is gaining more and more followers, I thought I’d talk about the vision behind this ministry today, by sharing what Jesus did at our recent Resurrection Small Group!

If you have ever read the first page of this blog, you may have read the following: “Blue Mountain Ministry is an online prophetic ministry for God’s children all around the world, equipping the church through the gift of prophecy with a lifestyle of power and freedom coming from the stillness of heart.” If you’re like me, you have trouble sleeping. You’re sensitive, a feeler, and you tend to get anxious easily. You easily overthink stuff, your mind is constantly working. Isn’t it amazing how God then picked someone like me to help people find rest in God? I’m preaching quietness of heart that comes from a true, intimate relationship with God and that by itself is a miracle! He saved me!

You know, I wouldn’t be here sharing the following series of visions with you if it weren’t for Him. I really want people to know who God is and I want strongholds to break; the sin that so easily entangles us to distance ourselves from God: unbelief and fear of punishment. I’m fighting for faith everyday and I do it with confidence and desperation at the same time – the former because I know I have direct access into the throne room of God, my Father, and the latter because I know how desperately I need Him every moment of my life! If I really want to live according to my purpose (because I am here on this earth for a reason until I return to my Father), then I need to stay alert and pray. I myself must ask the Holy Spirit constantly: what’s on the Father’s mind? I asked Him what He was planning with my small group and this is the first picture He showed me. I’ll quote it right from the E-Mail that I sent to all participants:

“I see God building a boat at a lakeside. He is not in a hurry. It is peaceful and quiet. The water is calm and clear, and the light is soft. His restful presence calms me down. ‘What is He building?’, I ask myself. But I do not want to disturb Him. He looks up at me and smiles at me, I sit there with Him and watch Him build. At the same time, I also see a baby – she is asleep, resting because she is cradled securely in the arms of the Father. Everything slows down. He keeps building the boat, yes, but everything slows down for me and it happens in my heart. There is rest in my heart as I lean my head on His shoulder.”

What happened over the next eight weeks was so incredibly beautiful and exciting for us! It was a humbling experience for me because God revealed to me straight from the beginning that every member was holding a treasure inside to be shared with people at the right time (Matthew 13:52). You seriously miss out on so much if you try to be the strong-leader-who-has-it-all-together. You don’t and that’s okay. God speaks to everyone and everyone can hear God clearly if they learn to listen to Him! Here is the next scene I saw during our second meeting:

Jesus is still building the boat. I see you all arriving here and gathering around a fireplace, and we talk. Jesus comes to sit with us.

I also had this picture during our third or fourth meeting:

Jesus is teaching us how to fish. He is teaching us a new method of “wooing them in.” You don’t use hooks to catch the fish – no, it hurts them. You just woo them in, they just come to you as you spread out your hands with food in the water. Jesus looks at me and says, “this is how you win people over. Do it gently. Be wise.” (Proverbs 11:30)

Then, finally, the boat is ready! Jesus invites us to journey into an infinity of love that transcends time and space! The very last vision I want to leave as a shared memory between our group members, but I can share this:

We were on the boat today. I asked where we were going.
He said, “the future.”
“What can I expect there?,” I asked.
“Love,” He answered.
“If it is love, then everything will be good, pleasing and perfect.”
He smiled at that.
God asked me, “Why do you want to see people set free?”
I thought for a moment and said, “because I love them.”
“Because you love them,” He said.
“The truth will set you free” (John 8:32b). Infinitely.

Because He loves us.

My friend, this is how I live! I couldn’t go a day without talking to Him. I’m not bragging, I’m just telling you it’s possible; we were made for this! Every time we have such an encounter with God, Scripture comes alive in us! God is perfectly satisfied with Himself. Jesus was a happy man, He was peace in person. He always went to pray to God first, that’s how He kept His faith alive. He knew we needed it. So, if even the Son of God needed those moments of prayer and intimate encounter with the Father, how are we supposed to live in the power of the Holy Spirit without such practices?

I want to help you to rise up higher above the noise and the chatter of this world to the place of encounter and stillness before God before you do anything! I want your relationship with God to be so strong that you truly walk out of the abundance of heart and bear the fruits of the Holy Spirit in everyday life! But focus back to Jesus: I will never forget the strong presence of His quiet love when He was building the boat. Everything became quiet because of Him. There could not be any intrusion in His presence – maybe just my own restlessness.

The Great Temptation and Escaping the Snare

Hello everyone,

I re-wrote this post today (Jan 24, 2023) because God gave me a warning several days ago that there is a great temptation in the world to wander away from faith. Remain in His love, brothers and sisters!


Lust is a great craving towards anything you wish would happen soon, in the way you want. The second part is important because you can be given a desire by God but strive to make it happen your way; you would not have it otherwise. God loses His shine in light of the thing you desire. When was the last time you smiled just at His tender presence?

The Bible tells us to walk according to the Holy Spirit (Galatians 5; Romans 8). When we lust after things instead of just receiving from God, we wander away from faith. We try to make things happen by force or manipulation, even towards God. We won’t wait patiently. The countermeasure is faith in the eternal life given to us by grace through Jesus; it is shown in keeping ourselves from idols and ceasing to sin further; the enemy cannot touch such people with faith (1. John 5). You can lust after your own healing and deliverance before God says you’re ready. You can rush ahead of Him and hurt yourself. That is another way this temptation can come through. Listen, friend: He loves you and He will not let you take His glory. He will not make it happen too soon, in a way that you end up wandering away from faith, too, giving you room to boast about yourself. When condemnation tries to creep in, say this prayer out loud: Thank you, God, for covering me with the blood of Your Son. You loved me when I was your enemy still, and Your love is not changing because I’m going deeper with my own heart and realizing what I’ve been doing. Thank you for gentle correction. Help me rest in Your love today. Come, Holy Spirit. Our spirit is willing but our flesh is weak. Show us Your might, we rely fully on You. Perfect us and help us walk with You everyday. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Guard your heart and build your own relationship with Christ –

Then the foreign rabble who were traveling with the Israelites began to crave the good things of Egypt. And the people of Israel also began to complain. “Oh, for some meat!” they exclaimed.

Numbers 11:4

Watch what you hear! Come before God with thanksgiving and be still before Him, pray for surrender. If we humble ourselves before Him, He will rescue us from the snares of the enemy. God loves you. He loves you, He knows you deeply and He sees you. He protects you, His love is unwavering towards you. He is God, and He has only good thoughts for you! We can just receive. If we had really needed it right now, He would have given it to us. Instead of being angry or anxious, we can choose to sit at the feet of Jesus and put our faith in Him!

Though the fig tree may not blossom,
Nor fruit be on the vines;
Though the labor of the olive may fail,
And the fields yield no food;
Though the flock may be cut off from the fold,
And there be no herd in the stalls—
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will joy in the God of my salvation.

The Lord God is my strength;
He will make my feet like deer’s feet,
And He will make me walk on my high hills.

(Habakkuk 3:17-19)

Rejoice, Soldiers of God!

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!”
(Philippians 4:4)

This post is going to be a bit long, so please bear with me. There will be a lot of bible verses to read. But I believe that the Lord wants to convey something beautiful through this – a noble cause we are invited to pursue and remember. I’m sure that many have read the bible verse above and even know it by heart. Yet how do we rejoice? Have you ever asked yourself this question? I want to share some things God has been teaching me these past few weeks regarding this issue and I warn you ahead that this is not for the wishy-washy. This is for the soldiers, the good, committed ones!

If you have ever watched the Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King, you may remember the battle speech of King Théoden. The Riders of Rohan ride non-stop for days and days to finally arrive at the war scene where humankind is facing the fate of near defeat against the dark forces of evil. I know you’re wondering why I’m talking about the Lord of the Rings all of a sudden but I ask you to first watch this scene to the end (or at least read the speech that is written out in the description):

Did you get goosebumps, too? How do you feel about them shouting “Death!” after their King? How do you feel about the faces of the orcs at the very end when they realize these soldiers are not afraid of anything? Look at the chaos and fear that sets into their camp as the riders approach!

Now I’m not here to only talk about the Lord of the Rings. But I’m here to talk about God’s army. I’m here to talk about soliders. We all know who the King of this army is: our King Jesus Christ, our Lord! And who are His soliders? His disciples – US, if you consider yourself a follower of Christ, too!

In his letter to his “son” Timothy, the Apostle Paul writes this:

Join with me in suffering, like a good soldier of Christ Jesus. No one serving as a soldier gets entangled in civilian affairs, but rather tries to please his commanding officer.

2. Timothy 2:3-4

And again, a Roman centurion in the days of Jesus states this simple fact about order within the army:

But (Lord), say the word, and my servant will be healed. For I myself am a man under authority, with soldiers under me. I tell this one, ‘Go’, and he goes; and that one, ‘Come,’ and he comes. I say to my servant, ‘Do this,’ and he does it.

Luke 7:7b-8

Now imagine yourself being in this situation like the soliders in the movie clip; your King orders you to fight unto death for victory. How are you going to react? Hear this:

“In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. And have you completely forgotten this word of encouragement that addresses you as a father addresses his son? It says, “My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, because the Lord disciplines the one he loves,and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.” Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as his children. For what children are not disciplined by their father?”
(Hebrews 12:4-7)

Do you know how many times He encourages us to rejoice in suffering? (1. Peter 4:13; James 1:2; Romans 5:3-5 etc.)

“Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things …”
(Colossians 3:5-8a)

Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.
(Matthew 16:24)

“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
(Ephesians 6:12)

See, this is my plea to my brothers and sisters to endure with me and to rejoice with me in suffering with Christ for the Heavenly Kingdom! There is a renewal of the mind happening as we thank Him for discipline and learn to rejoice always. Because ultimately, we will have a heavenly reward of eternal life and bliss and joy! When we set our minds on things above, we realize that there is hope in resurrection. We realize that there are things eternal which we cannot see (yet) but in which we must believe so that we will partake in it!

The Lord shared with me that this year would be a year of renewal. We will learn to have pleasure and delight in obedience and following His command, His ways only. As Paul says, good soldiers really seek to only please the commanding officer. Everything that distracts them are put aside for the sake of Christ! So coming back to the question of how we continue rejoicing like He commands us to do: We remember who we are – His children – and that we are part of His army. We fear God when He says that there is life in doing what He says: to love Him and our neighbors as ourselves; to forgive, have compassion, be generous, gentle, humble and meek. To go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit and teaching them to obey everything He has commanded us (Matthew 28:19-20). For this, we forsake any distraction, any “civilian affairs” and put to death our selfish, fleshly desires by the power of the Holy Spirit. We cut ties with any signs of lust, sexual immorality, evil desires, greed, and impurity. We constantly come to Him FIRST for refuge, healing and deliverance. We truly ABIDE in Him!

The Breath of God is coming from all four winds to revive the army of God! He has been calling them from all around the world because the fulfillment of His promises are near! He told us to always keep our lamps burning. Is your lamp burning? Do you have oil to keep it burning this season? If not, repent and seek mercy! He is faithful and just to forgive when we confess our sins (1. John 1:9).

We must be ready, Christians! We must prepare the way for the RETURN OF THE KING. So rejoice, soldiers of God! Rejoice! He has taught us how to! Grab your weapons, day and night! Fast, worship, pray and read His word, day and night! Do not let sin overtake you. Do not let darkness override you. We serve a God who is God. He is God.

Amen. Glory to Him.

A Wall of Glass

Yesterday I had a vision of me standing in golden light. There was a thin wall of glass in front of me. I had a choice – either keep staring at the wall in a state of paralysis or move forward in faith.

‘Why, my soul, are you so downcast?

Maybe it’s all my fault? The crippling anxiety that comes from it; thoughts of condemnation, shame, and fear, pride…

But no, I am born again. I died with Christ and now it is Christ who lives in me.’

Nothing and noone can seperate me from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. with this thought I see myself place my fingers on the wall of glass.

And it breaks. Instantly, it all breaks.

And a powerful wind erupts out of the former confined space as the wall shatters into pieces. A force of God’s glory unveiled in my inner man! (Ephesians 3:16)

Praise the great I AM! He breaks us for a time to raise us up in a greater realm of glory afterwards. (2. Corinthians 3:18)

“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.”

Hebrews 11:6 NIV